I feel lost...lost in the jumble that is my head space......
I just realised that my gorgeous husband had a birthday on the weekend and I hadn't even looked at the pics that I snapped at the family gathering that we had.
That overwhelmed, noisy space that I am feeling in...is spilling over into every part of life....
The noise of manoeuvrings through the subject selection for our soon to be Year eleven child...
The noise of a husband who doesn't know if his job will be ending next week, next month or next year....only know that it is coming to an end....
The noise of a strong, extremely good negotiating nine year old who I have sent to bed with a sore behind tonight over a battle that shouldn't have been....
The noise of figuring out what we do with a home that has big structural issues we can't ignore any longer...
or the noise that I wish I had more time to be doing something more for those who need it...both those I know and those who are strangers to us....
more time , more time, more time.....or a way to figure out how to use the time I already have more efficiently.
All this noise....is making it hard to be creative, to get yummy looking food on the dinner table, make the unique gift for a friend, to take beautiful pics, to have clean and clutter free places in our home, to write some handwritten snail mail to some friends in distant places to tell them I think of them often.
I know it is just a season....one that will pass...all the noise will quieten and I will see clearly again and find inspiration. I will be less grouchy and more patient with those I love the most.
I so desperately want to savor each and every moment .....but I let the noise stop me from doing that......I will be back tomorrow with my Thursday Thankful List....the thing that keeps pointing me back to the many blessing in my life.....reminding me that I am not in this alone
The answer isn't to climb in under the doona and wait for the sunny days to return, but to remind myself of the big picture, remember to breathe and know the hope I have in Him to bring order and peace back into everyday life.
Like you say... It will pass but that does not lessen the burden in the present time. I understand trial and burdens I have not had a easy go in life but... I have found in my life that trial and burdens sometimes follow with spectacular blessings to come and sometimes not in ways that I would have ever imagined. Here's praying that things will find a way to work themselves out and I hope that with a small bit of time you find things much better. Sending you lots of love and hugs today
ReplyDeleteTake a deep breath and get a really good sleep ... things will start looking up, slowing down, working out soon.
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Sounds like you've got a handle on it Bron - soldier on. x
ReplyDeleteJohn 20v 21-22 Again Jesus said, “Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.” 22 And with that he breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit.
ReplyDeleteagain, and again, and again His peace and the beautiful presence of the Spirit our comforter and counsellor. Praying wisdom and the strength to lean in xxxx
Praying for you guys. For peace, stength, joy and a sound mind.
ReplyDeleteLove to you Bron xx
Yes. Breathing is good. Shortest day of the year today... More daylight time coming soon. Bigger picture is good too... but allow yourself time to be grumpy as well. You need the downs to enjoy the ups.
ReplyDeletesounds like a difficult time, hope you find some peace in your head soon to deal with all the craziness & uncertainties.
ReplyDeleteOh Bron it is hard when there seems to be too much on our plate to be able to deal with and then more comes along. I hope that some of these things will be easy to deal with and then be done with. Take care my friend, thinking of you. I do hope that things settle down for you soon. xxxx
ReplyDeleteBreathe - inhale exhale. Hope you are starting to feel much better. These times are so overwhelming - I am sure you will find a Way through. big hugs xx
ReplyDeleteLots of love and strength to you Bron. Thinking of you so much lately, be kind on yourself xx
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